Feed By Sheep Series Part 7- Restored To Sanity And Peace

                                                                           


I was doing an inventory of the food buckets and things on hand for the mission.'

I was hit by a feeling of dread, 'Lord I am not ready, Lord will fry out in this desert, Lord we must have this... we must still have that, or we will die'.

Needles to say in my moment of well...down right worry the lords small still voice shouted so loud, it almost blew out my ear drum.

God spoke in love, but also a rebuke. “STOP...STOP...STOP”. When you hear the lord in your heart say these words over and over it makes you stop, tremble and weep.

I did not have to ask the lord STOP what? I knew what it was, the flesh, and a lack of faith.

The lord keeps telling me to get back to the basics.

With all the wars and rumors of war, and the daily chaos, I said, 'time to do another inventory it's getting serious now'. How serious? Serious enough to fall on my face and pray, kneel and weep, soak in the word , worship.

How easy it is for our hands to hang down and to have weak knees in these days.

The lord said, 'lift up your hands, surrender and give me full charge, or you can choose to take over'?

What do you say to that? God never pampers our flesh, he rebukes first, and after, he encourages us.

I do not choose to take over, the lord forbid, but when we move in the flesh like this, we are taking over the lords role in our life, that is scary and dangerous.

I was once again given some verses, after I repented and was restored to my sanity LOL.

Mat 11:28-30

A well know classic. The part that hit me this time was ;

And learn of me;

That hit me am I honestly learning more and more of Jesus or just more and more about how bad things will soon be? This honest question is serious. I read the devotion and it was the same word, and it spoke to me again. Oh lord may I, may you, understand the depth and yet the simplicity of the Lord Jesus Christ


Mat 11:28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.

Mat 11:29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

Mat 11:30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.


JFB; Matthew 11:29-30

Take my yoke upon you — the yoke of subjection to Jesus.

and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls — As Christ’s willingness to empty Himself to the uttermost of His Father’s requirements was the spring of ineffable repose to His own Spirit, so in the same track does He invite all to follow Him, with the assurance of the same experience.

That hit me am I honestly learning more and more of Jesus or just more and more about how bad things will soon be? This honest question is serious. I read the devotion and it was the same word, and it spoke to me again. Oh lord may I, may you, understand the depth and yet the simplicity of the Lord Jesus Christ

Matthew 11:30

For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light — Matchless paradox, even among the paradoxically couched maxims in which our Lord delights! That rest which the soul experiences when once safe under Christ’s wing makes all yokes easy, all burdens light.


I end with T. Austin-Sparks Devotion that spoke to me and confirmed what the lord has been speaking to me about


The great business of Christians is to learn Christ. This is not just
a subject to study. I want to ask you: What is the greatest desire in
your life? I wonder if it is the same as mine! The greatest desire in
my heart - and the longer I live the stronger it grows - is to
understand the Lord Jesus. There is so much that I do not understand
about Him.

I am always coming up against problems about Him, and they
are not intellectual problems at all, but spiritual ones: problems of
the heart. Why did the Lord Jesus say and do certain things? Why is He
dealing with me as He is? He is always too deep for me, and I want to
understand Him.

It is the most important thing in life to understand
the Lord Jesus. Well, we are here that He may bring us to some better
understanding of Himself. The material of the Word will not be new -
it will be old and well-known Scripture. Perhaps we think that we know
the Gospel by John very well. Well, you may, but I do not. I am
discovering that this Gospel contains deeper truth and value than I
know anything about....

The one business of disciples is to know Him, and to do what He called
His disciples to do: /"Take My yoke upon you, and learn of Me"
/(Matthew 11:29). Jesus came to bring heavenly knowledge in His own
person, and in His person we come into heavenly knowledge. It is not
just what He says: it is what He says He is. Every true teacher is not
one who says a lot of things, but one who, when he says things, gives
something of himself.

By T. Austin-Sparks from: Discipleship In The School Of Christ -


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